I've always been the kind of person who weighs everything before making decisions. I have this confidence in my heart that I can succeed in anything because I have Jesus in my heart, and I know He will never abandon me. Jesus has always been faithful and is always so good to me; that's why I have this confidence.
My faith has been tested these past few weeks. I felt weak and powerless, but I still pray that He will keep me and make me stronger, the way He's been sustaining me whenever I feel frail, and I can't control the things happening around me.
It came to the point that I question and blame the people around me, but Jesus speaks to me from the Daily Devotionals by Pastor Rick that I need to fix the problem and not the blame. Pastor Rick said: "Relationships often have weapons of mass destruction. When you use those weapons, you fix blame but you never fix problems., Those are weapons of mass destruction. They're used to fix blame. And when you fix blame, you're judging—and only God has the right to judge."
Blaming is never a solution. I know in my heart that the conflict that I've experienced is to test my faith and to test my strength. It's exhausting, but I survived. I became stronger, my faith in Jesus emerge stronger, and now that I see the light, the brokenness in my heart was gone. I felt good and remembered that Jesus is in control, and He is.