May 19, 2023

This is the fifth month of the year

I live in a drama-filled world, but I'm gonna make it fun.

This is the fifth month of the year

There's so much I want to do this month that I can't yet because I need to wait. Me eight years ago couldn't relate. She was persistent, worrying too much, and doing everything to make things happen immediately. Hahaha.

Here's what's been going on this month of May.

Waiting. As hard as I've worked on my master's thesis, the universe doesn't want me to be free yet. I wonder why, but worrying about my thesis is pointless, so I just wait. Ecclesiastes 8:6 says, "There is a right time and a right way to do everything." A cliché that is so true, trusting God's timing because it's perfect! I might not be on track with the timeline I created for myself (I just can't help it, hahaha), but that's okay.

I want money, give me money. Lol, I'm spending more money than I ever have in my entire life. Our house improvements have always been on my parents' to-do list, and they're just waiting for me to give them the green light. Daughter duties! I said yes because it felt like it was the right time. As of now, I'm still overwhelmed by how much money I've spent. At this point in my life, I've already spent 70% of my savings, and sometimes I don't even know what to do with myself. HAHAHA. I tell myself that it's not about the money money money. Haha! Right now, we are almost there, I feel better as I'm seeing the results of my hard-earned money but still! Hahaha.

Mom's Approval? Before, I always felt that my decisions should always have standards (factors I created for myself, haha). Currently, it's clear what I want to do without having a list to follow or factors to consider. My mother recently told me that I can do whatever I want. This is BIG coming from my mom. She didn't tell me this to tease or make me feel good, but she's serious when she tells me this, and I really feel like she trusts me more than ever. It just felt so comforting hearing this from my mom since her approval is a significant thing for everyone in the family. Hahaha.

I want to add more, but I'm getting sleepy, perhaps in another blog. I just thought, I live in a drama-filled world, but I'm gonna make it fun. :)